A numbness in my fingers
A pain I can't appreciate
Cramping hands and drooping eyes
Twitching, twitching all the time
I sat up all night yesterday
And the night, the night before
And every night this week, this month
Begging, wishing, so desperate
Come morning, and this delicate dawn
Stealing in my windows and
Glaring down on a tired mind
Whispering of normalcy
Don't frighten me, don't anger me
Don't speak to me of normalcy
Don't laugh at me, don't expect of me
Don't treat me like in normalcy
I saw a man who said he'd help
I saw a woman who wanted to
I spoke I wrote I thought it out
And sat up all night, every night
I swallowed what they told me to
I tried it forwards, and back again
I read, I fled, I damn well despaired
Of getting close to normalcy
Don't call to me, don't come to me
Don't expect any normalcy
Don't ask of me, don't promise me
I'm sick and tired of normalcy
Faint hearted promises, all gone
Faces voices hearts all gone
I'd cry or laugh till the end of time
If I thought it would buy me normalcy
I'd sell my soul for normalcy
I'd sell my love for normalcy
I can tell you don't believe me but
I'd sell my mind for normalcy
Such pride, such pain, so much envy
I despise and yet admire
Those that live their normal lives
Steeped in contented ignorance
Do you know of this unreality?
Do you know this floating feel
The sensation opposing normalcy
The sense of sleep hanging round my neck
Waiting, looming, hovering
Always just out of my reach
I wish I pray I scream in rage
Coz all I want is some normal sleep
