The Little Girl's Moon

I shiver in the sunlight

On a warm summer day

I laugh at the funeral

Of another dream

I've jumped into this pond

Another million times today

And the gold at the bottom

Mocks, shining up at me

It's a fool's love

It's a crazy whisper

That passes on the wind

It's a clown's love

It's just a little girl

Reaching up to the sky

The moon is always

Out of reach

The stars are shining brightly

But too far away

I struck gold

In a pot luck

At the other end

Of the rainbow

But there was a stupid little bird

Singing an annoying little song...

It's a fool's love

It's a crazy whisper

That passes on the wind

It's a clown's love

It's just a little girl

Reaching up to the sky

I'm still lost in the woods

If that's what you wanna know

I dunno if I'm going out

Or still going in

At the neck of the woods

You see a love bite on a tree

'Coz everytime I see you falling

I wish you'd fall for me

And it still sings

The wind that rustles the poplar trees

It's a fool's love

It's a crazy whisper

That passes on the wind

It's a clown's love

It's just a little girl

Reaching up to the sky

I know I'd give my pumpkin

For a little frog

I know I'd give my kingdom

A crown for a penny

I'd rather live now

I'm on a bouncing castle

In the middle of the sea

I'm on a high

From all you've done

Can you blame me

For wishing her dead?

But I still think...

It's a fool's love

A crazy whisper

That passes on the wind

It's a clown's love

Just a little girl

Reaching up to the sky

Three's Company

Looking in from the outside
Fingers pressed against the pane
I watch you laugh, I watch her joke
And I search for the space
That ought to be me

Coming back from the outside
I see your hand in hers
I see you walk towards me
I smile and wave and hurry past
And look back for the space
That ought to be me

Falling into bed
After a long, long day
I watch you two chatter
Merrily, on your bed
Across the room
I wonder why I am so close
Yet feel so far, because
There's no space i see
That ought to be me

I Threw Away The Key

I watch your back

Recede into the shadows

Of this moonlit night

Something breaks within

Some resolve made

Many moonlit nights ago

As a cloud passes over the moon

As realization dawns

Upon a chilly night sky

The music blaring

In the backdrop

Fades into a muted rhythm

And my tears dry

Upon my cheeks

As I dance through a night

Filled with shadow

Why do I break the circle

Mingling with the shadow

Melting silently away

The night has left

A babe in my arms

It yet sleeps

As this step I take

As I walk to the closet

At the back of my mind

The babe in my arms stirs

And in her sleep, smiles

As my closet door\

Swings open for the last time

I sing to her a lullaby

An apology from the world

I tell her how

If I let her grow

And gave her all my love

She would grow stronger

And destroy me too

How I would have to die

I think of the silence

At my backdoor

And how I never knew

How the silence muted

The ticking of the clock

How my first born child

Is fatherless

And I am left alone

I bid the baby

A gentle goodbye

As her eyes flutter open at last

Her silent gaze

Rests on the closed door

And the darkness of the closet

Shades of Grey

'Tis a fine line I tread

Betwixt sanity and loneliness

'Tis a fine balance I hold

Tonight

There's only two ways from here

Perhaps more

Those I cannot see

Only two ways that spread

From under my feet

They beckon me

Forward with malicious glint

Shining along their courses

I lean forward and follow

Each as far with my eye

They lead me to familiar hollows

And clearings oft visited

But neither paths I wish to take

Knowing what's to come

I'd rather walk the finer line

Shining in between

Knowing well that a hint of wind

Could blow my thoughts away

Into another circle of Hell

Where pandamonium reigns

I'd rather walk the finer line

Till the fog clears

Till maybe the wind lets up

Till perhaps my life should take

A turn for the better

And I espie

The bend in the road

Nightmare Quest

The rain is at my window

As I collapse, lifeless

As sleep and comfy pillows

Take over

For an hour or two

A dreamworld snatched

From heady reality

On a cliff

The wind at my back

I'm running down

And to the beach

Your figure I spy

With your back to mine

The years I searched

Pass before my eyes

I reach this point

That brings to an end

The tireless quest

The tears and sighs

You turn around

And I run

Into your embrace

The feel of your fingers

Running through my hair

I look up into your eyes

And smile

You have no face

I wake up

My bed soaked in sweat

The nightmare ends

But the quest runs on

Comfy Pillows for the Broken Heart

Yesterday

As I set off

Back down the path

That leads to sleep

And comfy pillows

I was tempted

To turn around

Look back, maybe

For it was well past

The witching hour

Who knows

What I might have found

Who knows

What expression I might have caught

On your face, offguard

Was it merely the dream

Of the late hour

The magic that hung

Deliberate, in the air

Has made me hungry again

Hungry for Hope

Something that makes me want

To reopen the wound

So recently healed

I'm more sensible

Than witching hours and magic

This I'll have you know

That's why I headed straight down

That road that lead

To sleep and comfy pillows

Waltz Alone

Tapping into reserves

Of emotion yet unleashed

My pen sets out

On its solitary tale

The laughter in the wings

The screams from last night

Resound in my head

As I stare into

The unforgiving glare

There are some things

That lurk in the shadow

And other things

That prowl the daylight hours

But if my dreams

Are anything to go by

I'd rather walk the shadows by myself

Than turn around

And face the glare

So I'm dancing by myself

Swaying with the crowd

Wishing for the hands

That should come and hold me close

I'm walking down

This road again

As my shadow holds my hand

Tonight I wish

On a wishing star

And try to hide the pain

Some things can't be hurried

There's no point to running

But the tiny ray of Hope

That keeps me going

Shines like the star

In the Northern Quarter

In a velvet sky

From long ago

And every time I round a corner

I remind myself to smile

For who knows but that it's you

That waits around the bend

Buddha of Torts

Light rays bounce off

Against a sunshine pate

Bushy eyebrows contract

Shadowing a sinister smile

Who deplores the lack

Of smooth black curls

Or gelled spikes...

Are not the enigmatic eyebrows

Becoming enough

Watch as eighty odd 'friends'

Shrink back and cower

Wincing slightly as those brows

Do bear down upon them

Jiggling like the evil

Yet to come

Example upon parable

Are issued forth

From beneath those ebony arcs

That frame round 'innocent' eyes

A laughing Buddha

In impeccable dress

Yet never a Buddha there was

Graced by such a pair

Of eyebrows so smart